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WELCOME TO THE SALTBURNT NETWORK
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i missed you too. i was thinking of you the whole time.
you're all i've ever wanted. i thought you knew that. i've loved you from the moment i saw you at the baratie.
i would never want to be with anyone but you. you and zoro. you're the only ones for me.
i'm sorry that i made you think i was romantically interested in anyone else. i'm not. i would never do that to you.
i don't know what you want me to forgive.
do you
want to be with jinx now?
you're all i've ever wanted. i thought you knew that. i've loved you from the moment i saw you at the baratie.
i would never want to be with anyone but you. you and zoro. you're the only ones for me.
i'm sorry that i made you think i was romantically interested in anyone else. i'm not. i would never do that to you.
i don't know what you want me to forgive.
do you
want to be with jinx now?
( just say it, nami. he’s going to find out eventually. it’s better to rip the bandaid off and stare at her phone while waiting for a reply than it is to do any of it behind sanji’s back. )
no
i want to be with jinx also. like i am with you and zoro
i don’t know how she feels about it exactly or if it would be as feelings intense as our relationship but yeah that’s what i want. she’s crew
no
i want to be with jinx also. like i am with you and zoro
i don’t know how she feels about it exactly or if it would be as feelings intense as our relationship but yeah that’s what i want. she’s crew
[ it's not that it's jinx that hurts. jinx is in fact a better choice than anyone else, lively and smart and strong, a perfect fit in nami's restaurant and on their crew. he's already decided he doesn't want anyone else in his kitchen. it’s just — all the raw uncertainty filling his cracks, thick and suffocating, to be freshly alive and still wonder. they weren’t together before, and he doesn’t know if he’s really any closer to it now. ]
and you
you decided this all while i was dead?
that you want to also be with someone else?
[ the posting makes a lot more sense now. ]
and you
you decided this all while i was dead?
that you want to also be with someone else?
[ the posting makes a lot more sense now. ]
( Ok, Bitch, )
i didn't decide anything while you were dead. i wasn't like. oh sanji's dead, time to reevaluate my dating life
i've never evaluated it in the first palce
i was miserable. no one was around. you were dead. it was my fault. i wanted to walk into the woods and suffer. jinx found me and took care of me instead
we only just talked about it now after that stupid gossip post
it just meant a lot to me
i don't have a lot of people i can rely on. i'm not gonna let her get in trouble for it so if you're mad get mad at me. i'm the one who messed up
i didn't decide anything while you were dead. i wasn't like. oh sanji's dead, time to reevaluate my dating life
i've never evaluated it in the first palce
i was miserable. no one was around. you were dead. it was my fault. i wanted to walk into the woods and suffer. jinx found me and took care of me instead
we only just talked about it now after that stupid gossip post
it just meant a lot to me
i don't have a lot of people i can rely on. i'm not gonna let her get in trouble for it so if you're mad get mad at me. i'm the one who messed up
it wasn't your fault.
it was mine for not being there for you.
i'm not going to get mad at you for telling me what you want. i wouldn't treat jinx like that, either.
i like her. and i trust her.
so if it's me you're worried about, it's okay. it's nothing.
and if she likes you then
i'm just glad that she can make you feel this way.
i know it's not
[ easy. because jinx has done in... days? weeks? (how long was he dead? the weather has turned, so maybe longer than he thinks. he hopes.) what he couldn't do in what feels like a lifetime now. ]
well, i'm happy for you, nami!
i know some of what she likes to eat, if you want me to make something special you can give her.
it was mine for not being there for you.
i'm not going to get mad at you for telling me what you want. i wouldn't treat jinx like that, either.
i like her. and i trust her.
so if it's me you're worried about, it's okay. it's nothing.
and if she likes you then
i'm just glad that she can make you feel this way.
i know it's not
[ easy. because jinx has done in... days? weeks? (how long was he dead? the weather has turned, so maybe longer than he thinks. he hopes.) what he couldn't do in what feels like a lifetime now. ]
well, i'm happy for you, nami!
i know some of what she likes to eat, if you want me to make something special you can give her.
oh.
yes. yes, i'd love to go out somewhere with you. it's proper that i would take you out and cook for you, but if you want to cook, of course you can.
there are also other people here that can do that for you. you shouldn't have to lift a finger.
[ nami... please...... ]
yes. yes, i'd love to go out somewhere with you. it's proper that i would take you out and cook for you, but if you want to cook, of course you can.
there are also other people here that can do that for you. you shouldn't have to lift a finger.
[ nami... please...... ]
but i'm asking YOU out, so shouldn't i take care of it?
ok i won't cook but only because i don't want to make you sick. i am planning it though. just wear something nice.
( turns out the solution to not being asked on a date to the business of the person your boyfriend cheated on you with (??? maybe??) is to plan it yourself. if you want something done not stupidly, you have to put on your big girl pants and stop waiting to be wowed. )
ok i won't cook but only because i don't want to make you sick. i am planning it though. just wear something nice.
( turns out the solution to not being asked on a date to the business of the person your boyfriend cheated on you with (??? maybe??) is to plan it yourself. if you want something done not stupidly, you have to put on your big girl pants and stop waiting to be wowed. )
[ in the woods. naked. while he was —
hadn't it just been nami and jinx? of course it had. she would have told him otherwise. ]
i can respect a man who wants to confess his sins before he gets his ass kicked. don't feel too bad though. nami's not wasting any sleep on you.
hadn't it just been nami and jinx? of course it had. she would have told him otherwise. ]
i can respect a man who wants to confess his sins before he gets his ass kicked. don't feel too bad though. nami's not wasting any sleep on you.
[shanks has done his part, nami is reeling and lost and dizzied, but she's not the only one who loved zoro. she's not the only one who needs to know. so:]
Zoro's gone.
I've looked everywhere, but I can't feel him and neither can Shanks.
I think he went home.
Zoro's gone.
I've looked everywhere, but I can't feel him and neither can Shanks.
I think he went home.
Well.
Yes.
But he can still sense him, like I can.
Better, even.
It could be the house playing tricks but I don't think it is. It doesn't feel like it does when it's the house.
Several things, but I'm fine. It's handled. Tim came back, he was some sort of angry bird fire thing. Don't worry about it.
Yes.
But he can still sense him, like I can.
Better, even.
It could be the house playing tricks but I don't think it is. It doesn't feel like it does when it's the house.
Several things, but I'm fine. It's handled. Tim came back, he was some sort of angry bird fire thing. Don't worry about it.
then he's dead like i was, and he'll come back like i did.
[ because he wouldn't have left. he wouldn't have. not when the last thing sanji asked him to do was kill him, and the last thing sanji told him was that he loved him, and he's received neither forgiveness nor an answer in return. once. he's only gotten those three words once from zoro, ever, and it was when sanji was splitting them apart so that zoro could be with nami instead because sanji didn't deserve her, and he never made that right either.
his anger verges on tears, stung that koby would do this to him, would say these words to him. at the mere thought that the shitty mosshead would even dare not to be here. ]
it's in our room. i left it by his bed, so he could find it.
[ because he wouldn't have left. he wouldn't have. not when the last thing sanji asked him to do was kill him, and the last thing sanji told him was that he loved him, and he's received neither forgiveness nor an answer in return. once. he's only gotten those three words once from zoro, ever, and it was when sanji was splitting them apart so that zoro could be with nami instead because sanji didn't deserve her, and he never made that right either.
his anger verges on tears, stung that koby would do this to him, would say these words to him. at the mere thought that the shitty mosshead would even dare not to be here. ]
it's in our room. i left it by his bed, so he could find it.
[this is -- harder than he'd anticipated, his head pounding, back aching, chest tight with the ambient bleed of sanji's emotions and nami's, having to insist again and again on the fact that he can feel sanji shattering under.
but not telling him is worse. it has to be worse. koby can't imagine how, but it has to be.]
If he was dead, I could find him.
I wouldn't lie to you, Sanji. I wouldn't tell you this unless I knew it was the truth.
I'm sorry.
but not telling him is worse. it has to be worse. koby can't imagine how, but it has to be.]
If he was dead, I could find him.
I wouldn't lie to you, Sanji. I wouldn't tell you this unless I knew it was the truth.
I'm sorry.
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