so you're not being careful. you're supposed to be one of the smart ones, you idiot.
i don't know how things work here. but i don't want anything to happen to you. i don't want a repeat of what happened back at the village here. keep yourself fucking normal.
[ he is. Feeling. and he can't talk to zoro about it because they're not talking about anything, and he doesn't want to bog nami down with any more of his problems when she has a chance to be comfortable and happy for the first time in months. ]
i can't go back to how i was. i don't know if i want to. but i wasn't ready for everything to change.
i lost something. i don't know what it was. i don't know if i'll ever know. don't say anything about it to anyone. i don't want them to know. it's a stupid thing to talk about.
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are you fucking around?
because you know back at the village zoro did some shit to me and i ended up
you know
when my body was different
you know what i'm saying.
[ don't get pregnant and die like him. ]
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OH.
Yes, I remember.
I'm being careful.
Mostly. [Liar.]
Anyway, maybe it has to be magical here too. I'll know in a couple days for sure.
I'm still trying to figure out how everything here works.
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you're supposed to be one of the smart ones, you idiot.
i don't know how things work here. but i don't want anything to happen to you.
i don't want a repeat of what happened back at the village here.
keep yourself fucking normal.
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I promise.
[He can't promise that, actually, and they both know it, but.]
I'll just
Be more cautious, that's all.
Also if
I mean
I know talking isn't really your thing but
If you're still feeling
You know
If things feel weird now that you're back to yourself and not
I'm here, that's all.
I know what that feels like.
So.
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i can't go back to how i was. i don't know if i want to.
but i wasn't ready for everything to change.
i lost something. i don't know what it was. i don't know if i'll ever know.
don't say anything about it to anyone. i don't want them to know.
it's a stupid thing to talk about.
that's why i don't want it to happen to you.
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[He could say more, but -- that's the most important part. So important that again:]
Nothing about that is stupid.
I'll be careful, but
You're allowed to be angry. About that and about
Being stuck here.
You're not stupid.